What I Found While Looking For Something Else
I had thrown my Apple pencil into my messy closet a few days ago. Today I had to do homework and needed it, so I dreadfully went and looked for it. I opened my closet and a ton of things came out; clothes, pens, bags, shoes– but no Apple pencil. After digging through a few bags in there, and wishing I had kept my closet clean, I had found it. Along with a lamp I had been looking for, a curling iron I need for tomorrow morning, my favorite bra I thought I had lost, and a pack of gum. You’re probably wondering why I’m writing about a bunch of items I found in my closet and I'll tell you why. When you’re looking for something in life whether that be love, more time for yourself, kindness from others-you will always find more than what you originally were searching for. It will more than likely take more time than finding just the one thing you're looking for, but the outcome will be worth the wait, even if the original thing never got found.
Another reason why I'm writing about this, especially because it’s been a while since my last post, is because I'm finally over my ex-boyfriend. We broke up all the way in June of last year and I'm now finally over him in January of the next. The past eight months weren’t all that bad, though the first couple were crying a lot. In my getting over him, I had never talked to him since, but kept on trying-kept on searching. I never got what I had been looking for in the first place, but something better. I got to know that I grew up since we last spoke, lost the big urge for a boyfriend that I felt I needed, and now–though not entirely– I can be a better partner for my next boyfriend.
I think a lot of people miss out on what you could find while searching for something because they’re too focused on what they want, and not the other outcomes of what you could get. I’m not saying that you should only look for the things that will come along, but rather don’t be so closed minded. I know it’s hard not to be, especially in the moment when you’re really craving that something, or if something’s really hurting–but really you’re just going to be upset until it clicks to you that it was okay for it to happen. Of course you’re still gonna have those feelings, but they’ll be less of an impact knowing that just because you didn’t get what you wanted, you’re still left with tons of other important things that’ll make it okay.